2018 in Review ๐
Thursday, January 3, 2019 :: Tagged under: personal essay year_in_review. โฐ 8 minutes.
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Another one in the books. I'm happy to report that I'm ending 2018 feeling like it was a good year for me. For the planet? For the country? Oh heavens no, everything is (often literally) on fire. The things we know are terrifying, and there are tons of horrors we haven't found out yet (did you know we lost most of our insects in the last few years?). My generation (and the next, most likely) will spend our entire lives undoing the damage.
It's not productive to focus on things I can't or haven't invested in changing. Looking at myself, I'm satisfied with 2018. Going into it, my theme was "marathon, not sprint." For most of my life my focus was surviving moment-to-moment, not choosing to live proactively. It was about minimizing pain, not maximizing joy. I never built anything to last because I barely wanted to participate in the present, why would I meaningfully invest in a future?
I'm not out of the woods on these. But with the help of therapy, supportive networks, the passage of time, a bit of work, and a whole lot of luck, I feel that I'm trending upwards.
Let's get this recap going ๐พ There's going to be a narcissistic number of photos of me; don't wanna post photos of other people on Public Internet without their blessing so these are what you get.
A year at Lyft ๐ฑ๐
Most of my "Year in Review" posts start with whatever it looked liked professionally. In my 5 years in NYC, I've changed gigs a lot! In early-startup land, team cohesion matters tremendously, and conditions are volatile. I don't regret any of my job changes.
I started and am closing this year at Lyft. The NYC office had ~8-10 engineers when I joined, and now we're bursting at the seams with several dozen (and a lot more to come). I've interviewed on the order of 50-60 candidates in two cities, worked on the most successful monolith โ microservices breakdown initiative I've witnessed (and I've seen a few), launched a few new features and services, and am happy to work with one of the most affirming and healthy teams I've ever been a part of.
I don't know what 2019 will bring. I don't have any intentions of leaving, and for all my skepticism about VC-backed tech companies and my guillotine rhetoric, Lyft is probably the employer I've been happiest with in my 10 year career. I don't feel like they get everything right, but they have a much higher hit rate than I suspected they would coming in.
But: Life is tumultuous! Here's to more ๐
Body changes
Initially wrote about it here. I'm still counting calories (a little less carefully during the holidays) and doing a lot of strength training. On the year anniversary (May-ish) I might put up some really douche-ey before/after photos. It's been a ride.
Deconstruct
I wrote about why I think its a great conference here, and expressed some gratitude. I'll probably write again after my talk goes up! ๐
Blogging
Hey! I blogged a lot last year! The motivation was mostly laid out in "Towards a More Open Web": I miss blogs, I miss people blogging. I like most of what I wrote well-enough, but favorites would be (in chronological order):
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โ๏ผข๏ผฌ๏ผฏ๏ผฃ๏ผซ๏ผฃ๏ผจ๏ผก๏ผฉ๏ผฎโ, wherein I yell at the cloud about a solution looking for a problem.
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Services, monoliths, and modularity is probably the most-read thing I've written on tech; sneaks in some cultural commentary; ending could use some tightening.
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Pablo seeking a date in 2016. Get some non-tech in there. I like the profile I built. Got someone to hit a table laughing last week with the line "Java in the streets, Erlang in the sheets."
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What developers mean when they say "Legacy Code." I don't trust us when we express distaste for code.
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Language ramblings on Python and JavaScript
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Reactions to GitHub's acquisition by Microsoft, Tumblr banning porn, and my choice to deactivate my Facebook and Instagram accounts.
To take an old Twitter convention:
๐ PLEASE ๐ WRITE ๐ COMMENTS ๐ ON ๐ THIS ๐ SITE ๐ AND ๐ NOT ๐ SITES ๐ LIKE ๐ FACEBOOK ๐ OR ๐ LINKEDIN ๐
When the comment sections get hoppin', that's when I'll know I Made It as a blogger lol.
Software
I wrote a static site generator that produces this website, my first real project in OCaml. I tried to write a CommonMark compiler in OCaml but gave up.
After perusing OCaml's web application offerings, I decided to learn Elixir and play with Phoenix instead. I made and deployed a stateless, silly app, built the bones of a much more meaningful one, before shelving it to build The Next Big Pablo Project, which I'm aiming for general, embarassingly-early release in February or March.
Trips
I went to Burning Man for the second time.
I went to Guatemala for the first time in 5 years and climbed the Acatenango volcano.

Getting to the summit is one of my happiest memories. Celeste shirt, obviously
Here are three panoramas you can see full-size if you click through. I love going to Guatemala.
Recently went snowboarding for the first time in 15 years. I ate food branded by everyone's tรญo, Danny Trejo.

New Year's Eve in LA. Someone brought sparklers. Now I can have the prototypical Burner "holding a bright light source with whimsy" photo.
Relationships
I tried to be more socially active this year. While previous years were just barren desert, last year was a desert with some cactuses, and maybe a bird here and there. I'll try to up this in 2019.
Karen and I have another year under our belt, and we've now lived together for over a year.
Sapo had a medical emergency. He had another in November that I didn't blog about. He's very challenging but I love him very much.
2019 Goals
The main thing โ keep the momentum from 2018 going. Keep marathoning, less sprinting. Mainly:
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Continue therapy and wellness
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Keep building the software I'm working on
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Keep up on efforts to change my body
But, if I'm able to squeeze in a few more, I'm looking at:
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Training Sapo and Rocco to be better dogs. They areโฆ not easy to live with, and harder to travel with.
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Make music. I have BA in Music but for many reasons don't really consider myself a musician, and have minimal ability to make music. This might look like buying a keyboard and piano lessons, or playing with digital sound, like transcribing this process into Sonic Pi.
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Get more familiar with Machine Learning. I have a list of resources, I just have to put in the time. A sample project might be to train a model to produce a podcaster's voice, make a DeepFake of myself, or extend ScrabbleCheat to do something other than "play the highest move you can find."
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